Yes, i have done three interns and an endless list of other things, but the closest thing to any interview for me is the Spons-pub coord interview in 1st year. I cleared that.
Tomorrow after 6 months of tough convincing of companies the day is finally here. The day for which me and a lot of friends have been preparing from last six years. Everyone thinks that you will get the job. I am telling you it’s a tough situation to be in, but gladly i have experience of that. The scene was almost the same when i was writing JEE.
Back then i was a bit confident, bit worried, bit unprepared but somewhere inside i knew that i can do it. That was the driving force. Another driving factor was that i just didn’t had the option to screw up. There was only one option – winning it. A lot depended on it. I had to do it, i did it.
It’s almost the same case tomorrow. A lot depends on it. I have only one option. Just the day before you think of everything good, bad & ugly that have happened in the due course of time. You think about the things you know, about the things you should know for the test/interview, about all those things that you think you have forgotten.About the competition for that one job, and mostly i think what others know and i don’t. Where i might screw up. Do i really know the important stuff. Am i ready??
I know somethings. Whether they will suffice or not is to be answered. What i learned from the last time i faced such a situation was that everyone needs revision, and control of emotions. It’s the emotional intelligence that matters more here than the purest geeky intelligence. I know a lot about the way companies recruit, what they are looking for. I have a lot of it in me. I know that, but the point is the prove it to them. What companies look for is a good overlap.
The thing that’s haunting me always it utter perfection and flawless control over a subject. I don’t have it. I know something about a lot of things. A vast array of things. I know my shrtcomings and i know my strengths but i am not very good at expressing them. I never really had to. Now i have to. I am trying my best to do that. But i don’t know the best way out. At times like today when a lot is to be done in too less time i generally hit the panic button. I have this good/bad habit of trying to do things with least amount if resources and also the best way possible. I enjoy this exploration part more than the actual learning. I do learn a lot in the process, but it’s the process that i enjoy more than the results. It’s a method which is very very good in long run but it fails in the short run. I just cannot be mechanical, i have to look for that particular way that is better than the way i am doing it now. Believe me it’s a bad thing. It sounds good, but it’s bad when it’s the results that matter. But i can work hard to compensate for that. At times i do, that’s when the results come by.
I am not complaining about anything here. I completely love what i am now and the things i did in my 4 years at IIT. There were just too many awesome things to do here at IIT and for a guy like me it’s like heaven. I mean it wasn’t jsut possible to sit around and be perfect in one thing, i did that in Bilaspur where i had nothing much to do. I love knowing things. The amount doesn’t matter. There was no time to attain perfection. I wanted to know everything that i didn’t when i came in from my sweet little city in the woods.
End of IIT life is not the end of life, bit it sure feels like. It took quite a lot of time for me to realize that there it’s just another beginning after iit. I am waiting for it and excited about it. Another thing that i realized is that i am a BTech and not a PhD. I am supposed to know something about everything and everything about something.